Unconfirmed Feelings

I grew up with the church teaching that feelings are not reliable compass in life, especially as a spritual barometer for critcal crossroads. I still find my self in agreement to this early lessons in the christian faith yet i think we must know the difference between relying on them and totally ignoring them. Love, crushes and romantic impressions have made my world a little bit exicitng and made me willing to take a little risk.

what am i suppose to do? Im learning to put feelings in its proper place not relied upon yet not totally set aside. Though most of these unconfirmed feelings must be better kept safe in the secret compartment of my heart, its good to give a hint to others once in a while. Inside you see things that does not always have a corresponding biblical passage, you enjoy moments of laughter and ecstacy as you allow to revisit that little child in your heart. Like a horror movie you also see mysterious tragedy that if you put it on your sunday sermon it will never be understood. Sometimes an eerie feeling of the something gloomy, that seem not to leave your mind, some kind of a peep into the future and what you see makes your ears tingle.

Well words and feelings sometimes dont catch up with each other. You want to say it plainly only to find you have no right words that can best describe what you feel. Probably the best label is simply to call it UNCONFIRMED FEELINGS. It's another kind of adventure believe me, im slowly taking a risk to stay with it for a longer time. Who knows there's something to personally learn.