Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Life is daily

How do you make your daily routine meaningful? Hmmmmmp seems like a simple question, wait until you feel the weight of it, then you feel the complications it brings. We all live our daily rountine, whether it be household or office or school or church ( i almost forgot my routine), believe when you are caught in the rut of it really is boring! that's why we are all in for the search of something new, something refreshing.

The search is on and the journey begins. we try something new only to find out that when it reaches its expiration date something new turns to be something old. Is there a way out? what bounderies are needed to limit our search? or do we need any boundery at all? Is it more exciting and daring when there's no limit- satistfy your curiosity to the max?

Call it midlife or any other name, well i think im in the middle of it. Being a minister im expected to be the model of what's cool or i am wearing a label that says 'he is always ok" im can't blame those who see it that way. Perhaps we sounded that way while we preach or pray, or we pretended to live that way. Let me tell you ministry gets boring too. Is there a way out? A break? I think we all need to brake before we break. that's a good break to begin with- slowdown.

slowly im beginning to figure it out of my rut. im learning the powrful value of intimacy with God in simple desperate prayer. Learning it as a learn the basic of breathing. it works!not only as a theraphy but an encounter with the One who create life and living to be daily. Somehow as see God as my boss (a work related relationship), I guess the Lord Himself has to come in and with me in the dailyness of life and routine. i slowly learn its God Himself i really needed! No proxy, no detour, Himself the cool One! I've been through a lot this year, I don't need to peek through the years ahead, im too afraid to that. it took a lot of guts to log on to death.com to find out how much time left .... it registers i will die on september 25, 2042! whether it true or not one thing is valid the brevity of life. I find myself praying saying " Lord please walk with me, even beyond death.com's dead line. Im still in my daily routine, slowly i see some light when i realize the Lord himself walks with me. til next time we have a walking to do, i think i will bring my dog faith (a dobberma)