tradional birthday crab
I don't remember when exactly this crab dinner started. It's my eldest son's favorite for his birthday. Today Paul celebrates his 14th birthday! Im awes trucked the small boy is now a young man! I remember putting candles on a steamed crab for his birthday during his younger days, yes crab instead of a cake. After a song and prayer we all dig in for the feast! Those precious moments of being a family. Paul being a minister's so grew in a simple home, im sure he is not all the way appreciative of what he has in a pastor's home and being a PK is a tremendous pressure.
Today his 14th birthday almost slipped away, thank God it didn't. Mama was not with us, we took Fitz with us and use his new car. We went to a chinese resto for a crab! No regrets when i heared my visa card cranked, this is for my son, nothing is too precious than this night! Nothing dramatic happened oh how teenagers detest emotions especially from an emotional dad like me. I tried my best to simply listen (God knows how i restrained), Paul's thoughts were honest and deep answering the query of uncle Fitz on how it is to be a preacher's kid, he spoke of tremendous pressure and high expectations that he has to contend with. I just sighed feeling load for the boy and silently offered a prayer for grace to abound. What about the perks of being a PK? i eagerly await what he will say, then the bite of reality " I am still trying to find out the perks" oooouch. Hurt? actually its more an awakening in my part and a silent prayer again for God to dash some gladness in his young heart. It's not a complaint or anger, i simply sensed honesty out of his heart.
It was a fine evening of deep thoughts for me, perhaps a lesson on grace and a challenge to bend down and see the world from his view. i pray that despite this all one day Paul will finally find the right words to describe the perks of being a PK. I love you son! Til the next crab dinner!
Today his 14th birthday almost slipped away, thank God it didn't. Mama was not with us, we took Fitz with us and use his new car. We went to a chinese resto for a crab! No regrets when i heared my visa card cranked, this is for my son, nothing is too precious than this night! Nothing dramatic happened oh how teenagers detest emotions especially from an emotional dad like me. I tried my best to simply listen (God knows how i restrained), Paul's thoughts were honest and deep answering the query of uncle Fitz on how it is to be a preacher's kid, he spoke of tremendous pressure and high expectations that he has to contend with. I just sighed feeling load for the boy and silently offered a prayer for grace to abound. What about the perks of being a PK? i eagerly await what he will say, then the bite of reality " I am still trying to find out the perks" oooouch. Hurt? actually its more an awakening in my part and a silent prayer again for God to dash some gladness in his young heart. It's not a complaint or anger, i simply sensed honesty out of his heart.
It was a fine evening of deep thoughts for me, perhaps a lesson on grace and a challenge to bend down and see the world from his view. i pray that despite this all one day Paul will finally find the right words to describe the perks of being a PK. I love you son! Til the next crab dinner!
posted by arneltan at 9:17 PM
2 Comments:
what a wonderful moment :) one day, im almost sure, paul will look back and cherish his crab dinners with you.
it's times like these when i miss being home. would have loved to tag along for a crab dinner :)
thanks alex
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