One fine evening

if you look at it on the outset they look the same, distributed evenly to all, yet in its sameness lies a unique mystery, im refering to TIME. Equally given by the great Time Keeper yet dispensed and used differently by everyone. Some waste it, others are enslaved by the tyranny of the urgent, while others simply shoo it away in indifference. For me i take it one tick at a time. Prayerfully learning to love each moment knowing that Someone makes it beautifully in His time.

Reality bites, not every tick is pleasant. Sometimes it brings mysterous pangs of pain. Tonight is an exemption. My wife and I together with some friends enjoyed a good dinner. Good dinner to me is chinese food yummmm! I have few extra bucks left to enjoy a good eat out. what makes the evening splendid is not just the food, but the timely realization along with it. Before it slips my forgetful mind, let me take time to list them;

1. Good food is enjoyed best when you share it with friends.
2. time that is uncluttered by guilt or by rules is rare, so enjoy it when its there.
3. simplicity in life does not mean deprivation of the good things in life, its enjoying its uncomplicated blessings
4. its a real blessing to have a wonderful wife
5. The smaller the group the more merrier the dinner and less expensive too
6. don't forget to end with good cup of coffee, though the coffee tonight is not that good.
7. making a difference and making a spiritual influence on others need not be by the book, spontaneous flow of friendship is the key.

Well i think it will take some time before i can fully digest my own realizations. By the way whats yours? Don't allow a fine evening just to end with good food. Prayerfully discover the wonderful realizations waiting to be unearthed from the soil of the ordinary time. Above all dont forget the Lord our Wise Time Keeper. Remember anytime now can be time out!

Week of weakness

I wish all things would all be right and to have fewer mistakes daily. Well, this is not the reality! The more i draw close to God in prayer, the more i realize my perpetual weakness. Believe me this is not just a new phrase for low self esteem. It's a spiritual awakening brought about by fervent prayer! Did i have a bad week? In terms of mistakes not so, but interms of rude spiritual awakening YES!

The activities of this week made me look deep inside me. Though its hard to see things just on the outside (unaware minister like me have a creative way of looking good, giving the impression to others or to one self that all is ok). it's when i spend a much needed quiet moments with God in prayer that i sense and see what's inside. Believe, its an awful sight! God's conviction grows deep penetrating down to the real you. With a helpless sigh i can only cry "Lord have mercy, im weak!"

What's good about this week of weakness is that it made me realize my need of God moment by moment! it is when i consciously acknowledge my need of Christ that in my weakness i begin to see and sense and enjoy God's strenght and God's presence in the most awful moment of my weakness. I take refuge on what saint Paul said "My gracious favor is all you need, and my power works best in your weakness", with this in my heart, I can smile again and face more weeks of weakness, only this time the weak one now learns to cry to the One who is gracious and strong!